I don't know what's going on in my mind every day, but I always think about it during class... I get up to train when it's still dark every day, and at night I have to... I feel like my time is "flowing" every day, just like me. Every day in class, I am always told to study hard, but when I go to school, I am dreaming like a pig. The next day, I still tell myself the same thing. But what about the result. I don't know what the use of my life in this world is. It's useless. There is also a saying, "I am born to be useful." I don't know what the consequences will be if I continue like this. I want to change myself every day but...