Koi Does Not Glow

I hope someone will plan for your future, hold your hand, and lead you to realize it step by step. I was in a relationship with A for three years. He chased me, gave me flowers and assisted me. When I got angry, I said break up. When I spent money, I was AA. When we went out to play, I refused. I shook hands when I held my hand. When I kissed, I rejected him. Until I asked him to change his hairstyle and clothes. He started seeing other girls around me. I was a little panicked. He started to treat me coldly and violently. Then he went to an internship and met the love of his life. During that time, I was embarrassed because I was The sad thing about the person who was chased and hidden was that it was my first love. I didn't want to understand anything, and I hurt him unintentionally. The habit of two or three years was inseparable and inseparable. I watched A take out a loan to buy a mobile phone and cosmetics for the girl he liked. When I was 17 years old, I naively thought that money was the only shortcut to love. I started to work hard and try to forget A. A always said that I was stupid, easy to deceive, cute and beautiful when I met everyone. ? B is my direct supervisor at work. He is handsome, soft-spoken, and young and promising. He carefully leads me to work and enlightens me about life. There are many girls around him, all of them beautiful, and he treats me like a child. At that time, I also met the girl I liked very much in junior high school. The fate was amazing. The girl I thought I would never meet again, the girl I couldn't talk to throughout junior high school, appeared in my life, saw through my little secret, and protected my little thoughts. I can write many stories about B and I. My secret love lasted only a week, but B and I are not the same person. B is an adult. I was too naive. I really tried my best. ? Me and B, it will be our first anniversary on the 14th. We separated. As I mentioned, I love him very much. Miss him so much. But the love I want is too childish, and B can't afford it. B plans a future with me, and I cling to him every day. He and I, we were both tired. ? This year, I am 19 years old. I feel that my sincerity is not sincere enough and I cannot move that person. ? My life has become very quiet. I have nothing to share. Whether I am happy or not, everyone is very busy. ? Later, A added me and I responded. Sorry, I don't know you. ? B never came back, I didn't look forward to it much, and I never felt happy again. So far. Don't meet amazing people when you're young. The acquaintance has already been signed. Purpose: To all the boys and girls who love and have to let go