My life (even though it is only a third of the way through) feels very smooth. I have successfully graduated from elementary school, junior high school, university, and graduate school. However, I seem to have never had a goal. I don't know what my meaning in this world is—to live, get married, and have children? Then what? I had no pressure or motivation. It seemed that the hardest thing I had ever done was to get into graduate school (I was just lucky). I haven't been successful in losing weight since elementary school. So far, I still weigh 120 pounds (I'm only 1.6 Meters tall). I have not persisted in all my interests and hobbies. I really want to find something that I love and strive for, which can make me love life even more. I resigned from the bank at the beginning of the year and wanted to prepare for the civil service exam with peace of mind. However, the epidemic hit me again and I continued to mess around at home and did not use the extra time to review properly. My mentality is broken. I have insomnia every night, imagining what if I had not resigned, or if I had chosen my favorite major and studied for a Ph. D. So what will my life be like? The pen in my hand was rustling, but my mind was getting more and more drowsy. Finally, I fell asleep on the desk...
Intention: Because it is too boring and unrealistic fantasy, just for your own entertainment. If you don't like it, don't spray it.