I met him in the fall of 2020
The golden leaves, the gentle wind, that day, his back, his shoes, the corners of the boy's clothes blown by the wind, and his careless smile, played in my mind frame by frame.
So I started a secret love that lasted for 500 days
One step... Two steps... Three steps... I try to get closer to him slowly
But I was wrong. The more I liked him, the more panicked I became. Whenever he came near, I wanted to hide. Because I liked him so much, I could never speak in front of him.
"A secret love is something you have never had but lost thousands of times."
"Xu Siyuan, can you hear my love?"
He is the prototype of my novel, the core of my lyrics, the protagonist of my diary, and the little stars are words to him
"Xu Siyuan, I'm so tired from having a secret love. Just look back at me, just one glance will do."
"What? Do you like Xu Siyuan?"
"What?"
"You are not from the same world at all."
"I know"
"But I can't help but get closer."
I don't know what's so good about Xu Siyuan, but no one else is good except him.
But there are so many girls around him, no matter what, they will not be me, they will not be me who is quiet and inferior.
The person who walked beside him openly on that sunny day will never be me.
You don't know that I like you, you don't know that I feel sorry for you, and you don't even know when I will give up. From beginning to end, I am the only one.
"Secret love may seem cowardly, but we have tried our best to express our love."
"The secret love I have only once in my life is for Xu Siyuan."
"Xu Siyuan? He is someone who has long since let go."
"Secret love is a dark night where no light can be seen
A person's voice is hoarse
Warm and grand be aesthetics
Only one person will come to the appointment."
[Demining]
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Intention: I hope that dazzling young people will always be dazzling