I knew he was not my light, but at that moment the light seemed to really shine on me.
Xu, thank you for meeting me that autumn, letting me know what love is, thanking the end of that summer for letting me know what liberation is, thank you for your company and care, making me feel warm, thank you for supporting me unconditionally, thank you for comforting me when she was most sad, maybe you just treat me as Friends or even friends are not just classmates. You let me know what it is to feel like I have never had it but seem to have lost it a thousand times. You let me know what it is like to long to see you but be afraid to see you. Thank you for my secret love for you, which has made me grow a lot.
Maybe my inferiority complex does not allow me to like you and love you openly. Maybe this secret love has no result in the first place, and there will be no result.
Goodbye, Xu, our story is completely over, but loving you is really hard. I am like a child who can never get candy, but I still like you. I am still at a loss when you are around, and I still feel uneasy when talking to you, but fortunately I am relieved that I cannot be with you. I really don't know how to get close to you. You seem like an unattainable goal. I can't figure out whether you have a crush on me. This feeling that I have never had but seems to have been lost a thousand times is too uncomfortable. I don't know who to tell. I can only keep it in my heart silently. I can only cry in the corner silently. I don't want to like you anymore. Liking you is really too tiring.
Xu Huansong, remember to be happy every day. Please be a carefree academic master in the following days. Find someone who loves you and spend the rest of your life with the person you love!
Thank you for starring in my youth!
In this prosperous summer, Fan no longer has Siong. Perhaps Fan has never owned Siong.
Intention: Youth