Relatively Independent

"If you were given the ability to go back to your childhood, how old would you be?" "Nine years old." Back when I had not been violated, when there was no other person living in my body, when I had no auditory hallucinations or hallucinations, when I was 9 years old and was regarded as the apple of my family's eye instead of a bad omen. "Loving him gives him the courage and ability to live, not taking over his body." Shen Jinyu felt that she had died when she was nine years old. But he didn't expect that someone would hang on to his life and forcefully teach him how to love and be loved. "Promise me that you will live well and we will definitely meet again." -// When he was nine years old, Chen Chuo found him by his side for the first time. He was no longer afraid of sleeping alone because he knew he was by his side. Every night he would hug himself in bed and coax himself to sleep. "He is very good. He depends on me for everything." "He'll take care of all my wounds." "I think I like him too." "It's the kind of love between lovers." One is afraid of being abandoned. One who witnessed his own light being torn to pieces. They seem to have forgotten each other, but they have truly become each other's only ones. One is always searching, and the other is waiting on the other side. He firmly believed that he would be there. He was sure he would come. Everything seemed to be destined to be disconnected, and fate always seemed to want to blow them apart. Later, they discovered that a surprising glimpse at the age of seventeen and a formal meeting at the age of eighteen were their best arrangements. He left his deep alley. He walked out of his long night. Our numerous scars have healed and scabbed. This is my love for you and my responsibility to you. If I love you, then I will not be a flower in the sky that only clings to you. I will be a rose, using my thorns to protect me and you. If I love you, I will not go back to being a double-edged sword that hurts each other. I will be a scimitar, sharp to the outside and gentle to you. Shen Jinyu: I once wasted my time and even recklessly considered death. Now I just want to live a long life. Chen Chuo: You are the person I want to find when I cross the sea of ​​​​people. You are the person who helps me find my way back. The growth story of Shen Jinyu/Chen Chuo, a patient with schizophrenia. Chen Chuo×Shen Jinyu Unclean/pseudo stream of consciousness There are two story lines, one with Shen Jinyu as the main character, and the other with Chen Chuo as the main character. You will understand it later. This is truly a salvation! Updated from time to time, about two or three times a month Daily updates will be stable after June Try to finish Shen Jinyu's story line before the end of July Intention: Make peace with yourself.