"Secret Refining" is a novel in the style of a secret love diary. In Shang Nian's youth, Zhang Yishuo was always the star that was out of her reach, and he was always... An unreachable... Star.
"My youth has been vigorous because of you, but... There is no ending."
"My love for you is unknown, only the moon knows it"
"It's a pity that I am not the heroine of the novel, so my love cannot be reciprocated."
"How should I put it? I treat you like the person in the mirror who has been wronged. What I mean is... I want to help you, but I can only comfort you. I can't cross the line. I still want to be friends with you."
"You are my calamity, I'm sorry, I can't get through it."
"Later, you forgot about me, but I tried my best to forget you."
This diary may have ended long ago...
There is no CP in this book, only Shang Nian who longs for Zhang Yishuo's love. Her feelings for him were one-sided from beginning to end, how could they possibly be together. There is nothing so-called difficult to reconcile, this is just a story told from the female protagonist's perspective about a boy she had a crush on when she was young. Shang Nian also understands that secret love is a secret trial. Once you get over it, you will be the hero and heroine of the novel. If you can't get over it, it will be reality.
Author's words: 1. Business concepts have prototypes. In the three-dimensional world, she was also in love with a boy who had amazed her throughout her youth. She was an average-looking girl, and her grades were above average, while the boy's grades were still excellent.
2. Zhang Yishuo made some changes based on that boy. In reality, he did not go from being taciturn to talking more. Instead, he was always very active. He never knew that a girl had liked him for 6 years. He had never paid special attention to that girl. In other words, their relationship was "more than friends, not lovers". He had never found that S had liked him for so long.
3. The relationship between S and Z in real life is like that of brother and sister? Well, I guess so. Z has always regarded her as a good brother, similar to the relationship between boys. In addition to S's personality, it seems that Z has never regarded S as a girl?
4. I once asked S: "Why did I fall in love with Z." She said: "Well... I don't know very well. I don't understand love, but every time I see him sad, I will rack my brains to think of how to make him happy; every time he says that I am his best friend, I have an indescribable feeling. I don't know why. There is a sad feeling; when I graduated, he signed my book, which I still treasure. Once my mother almost sold it for scrap, and I had a big fight with her. Maybe I really don't understand what love is, and I can't tell the difference between love and liking, but at a certain moment, I clearly knew that I loved him. "
5. Maybe my writing skills are too poor and I can't write about S's 6-year secret love. However, I will always surrender to S's secret love. I will never forget what she said to me, "I love him. This matter only has to do with me."
Intention: Love has no reason