I am "Yan Qingxiao".
My lover is "Zhang Xichi".
The lover I fantasize about in my dream is actually myself who has not been changed by reality. What I hate is myself.
In the dream, I became him, lived as him, and got the love he longed for; in reality, I abandoned him, hurt him, and destroyed myself and him with my own hands.
The moment you wake up from the dream, it is the beginning of new life.
When you took your first step into the palace, death was already approaching me.
I write poems for you and wait for you.
The years go by slowly, and the rest of my life is very long.
Maybe when I really look back, you have already fallen silent at the bottom of the sea.
Purpose: Homosexuality is not guilty