Is this okay? I don't know.
I just want to be with him, forever.
Right here, fulfilling that "impossible" wish.
My birth was destined to be a mistake.
I don't know when I started having this idea.
What if, there had never been me in this world. Then everything will be fine. There will be no hysterical arguments, no sadness, no regrets. He will definitely be happy too.
I'm always the one who disappoints people. Even though I hope he is happy from the bottom of my heart, I am still so selfish, so selfish that I want to monopolize him and am unwilling to leave him. Obviously knowing that all this is wrong.
He is gentle to others, but he constantly hurts those who love him deeply.
What is love? I have no idea. I don't understand forever, I don't understand myself. . .
All I want is to be with you quietly.