If no one is willing to accompany you to go crazy and have fun with you, they will even sneer at your curiosity with a childish sentence, and end the conversation with a nonsense sentence about your enterprising spirit. Then all your good things are nothing to him. The good things you have tried your best to carefully protect for half your life have turned into a pile of shit.
Are you really ready to live like this for the rest of your life?
Intention: Regain yourself.