Cheng Hao, the chief minister of the cabinet in history, was regarded as a "sober man" by the world. He said that he had served as an official for several dynasties without changing his original intention, and he fought against the eunuchs alone without changing his face. He was a famous figure of his generation.
But I saw his helplessness and caution in the words written privately in the history books. In front of a huge dynasty, eunuchs were in power. Thousands of years ago, he probably felt helpless and unwilling.
I don't know how many days and nights he spent, isolated and helpless, drinking bitter wine alone in front of the cold window, hungover in the atrium under the moonlight. When those like-minded people left him one by one, how much he longed for a touch of warmth.
But he always pretended to be strong, a strength that could easily be shattered by a single blow.
Later I realized that it was actually called self-esteem.
Later, Wu Xuan met this self-respecting young man in her dream. She stared at the lonely man in front of her with a trace of mist in her eyes. She asked: "Cheng Hao, can you stop working so hard? If you are one more or one less you, the Ming Dynasty will not change. Instead, it will make yourself scarred."
"I never believe in those absolute theories. I work hard just for the peace of mind that I can find my job in my position."
Later, when Wu Xuan stared at the boy in front of her again, she knew that she was finished and she could not get out.
"Guess who I'm looking at through you?" Wu Xuan said this sentence twice and answered it twice.
One time was when Cheng Hao was released from prison, "I was looking at my old self";
One time was when Cheng Hao lost his last like-minded friend, "I was looking at who lost the once strong Cheng Hao."
Cheng Hao knew that he was not alone, he also had Wu Xuan.
Intention: Who is whose light? The light allows me to move forward. I don't believe in fate or gods.