This is the memoir of a depressed patient. The story tells the life story of the protagonist who experienced depression and was later cured.
The protagonist Xiao Ya is a beautiful woman with outstanding talents and high quotient, but she still remains mysteriously single at the age of thirty, which makes people around her puzzling.
Three years ago, 27-year-old Xiao Ya was about to marry into a wealthy family. At this time, news came that Xiao Ya's father was in prison. The fiancé could not accept Xiao Ya's true life experience, so he canceled the engagement. Xiao Ya, who had hidden too many secrets, broke out into depression.
No one knew that she had maintained ambiguous relationships with several boys at the same time, because she looked so pure and pleasant; no one knew that she was very good at dealing with people, but there was also a chaotic time when she was ridiculed for her "low emotional intelligence" and her work life was a mess; when asked by her best friend, "How many exes do you have?" Xiao Ya said frankly: "I don't count, I don't remember."
With psychological consultation, Xiao Ya's memory goes back to her ignorant childhood. Under the guidance of a psychological counselor, Xiao Ya understood her own trauma and the chaos and madness she had experienced. The cure of depression has given Xiao Ya, now thirty years old, a "black vitality" that most people don't have.
Purpose: The story unfolds a clear description of depression from a first-person perspective. On the one hand, it allows people to have a close understanding of depression itself, and on the other hand, it wants to bring hope to people who are still depressed. Depression seems like a dilemma in life, but it can also be a form of life growth.