[Variety Drama] White Devil

A turning point in life After graduating from college, Dashan was assigned to Chuzhou, a city where Ouyang Xiu once served as a prefect, and worked as a secretary for the mayor at the time. From then on, he lived a life of stable income. With the first month's salary, Dashan bought an electric blanket for his grandmother and mother. At that time, he didn't know that grandma's eyes had been hurting for a long time, and her vision began to become blurry. But she didn't say a word to her grandson who came back. She only happily touched the first gift from her grandson, and she was so happy that her grandson was now successful and truly became her pride. Dashan did not notice that this old lady who was always surrounded by suffering was really old and her face was covered with wrinkles. Over the years, she had worked hard to raise her grandson, fearing that he would suffer if he could not go to college. The grandson had no money to go to college and was afraid that he would not have enough to eat at school. She also had a younger brother in Taiwan who did not know when he would live or die. Now that her grandson's job is stable, she feels relieved, and her worries about her brother have also eased a lot. She felt sorry for her grandson and was determined not to be a burden to him in the future. After a few years of peaceful life, grandma's eye disease got worse, but she still didn't say a word to Dashan. Sometimes the pain was really severe, so she would go to the local doctor to grab some painkillers and take it. During this period, Dashan got married. His wife was introduced to him by a leader in the work unit. She was two years younger than Dashan. She was the daughter of a retired cadre in the work unit. She was quite handsome and had long braids. The matchmaker arranged the first meeting, and the girl took a liking to Dashan. His calm temperament was different from the boys who grew up in the city around her. This temperament deeply attracted her. Although the clothes are simple and plain, they are also neat and tidy. Although she only saw this side of him, she concluded that Dashan would be promising in the future and she would live a good life by following him. Without too much consideration, she agreed to the relationship, and soon after, she also agreed to Dashan's proposal. On the contrary, Dashan was in trouble after the girl agreed to get married. How could she get married? He is a face-saving person, so he must at least give the girl a decent wedding. I still live in a dormitory, and I don't have a house to get married in yet. A good friend from the work unit found out and found a way to lend him an old house without a door. The girl knew that he had no money, so she comforted him and said, "It's okay. If you don't have money, just get married. If you get married, you'll have everything!" So they installed a door in their new house, bought some daily necessities, and held a ceremony to get married. When Dashan took his wife back to see his grandma, he found that one of her eyes was completely blind, and the other eye could only see something vaguely. After Dashan's questioning, grandma told the truth. He quickly took his grandma back to the city and went to a large hospital to find a specialist to examine her. After the examination, he found out that her grandma had glaucoma, and it was in an advanced stage, with no hope of cure. The other eye will soon be blind as well. Dashan felt a little guilty, blaming himself for being too careless. If his grandma's symptoms had been discovered earlier and he had brought her in for examination, there might be hope for a cure. Grandma's reaction was different. She accepted the result calmly, as if it was something he should have to bear. As long as her grandson's life gets better, she will be blind if she is blind. When she was blind, she took turns passing behind her sons, so as not to harm her grandchildren. Dashan hoped in his heart that he could take care of his grandma, but now he felt that he did not have the conditions to take care of her. First of all, he had to go to work on time every day, which was not allowed due to the short lunch break. The key was that he did not know how to cook, and his newlywed wife was just pregnant and was also at work. It happened that the old lady had been staying at his house for a few days and couldn't go anywhere. She clamored to go back, but Dashan didn't insist anymore. He prescribed some medicine to alleviate the condition from the doctor and sent his grandma back to the countryside. His wife gave birth to a son for Dashan. He was not as fat as Dashan when he was a child, but he was also fair and fair. This child looked more like his uncle. But his temper is like a mountain, very stubborn. When the child was two or three years old, Dashan's youngest brother fell ill. This was Dashan's most beloved brother. His grades were better than Dashan's, and he was stronger than Dashan. He could help the family with farm work. He was Dashan's hope. Dashan once said that he paid all the tuition for his fourth brother. Dashan even took him to a better hospital in a bigger city, and the diagnosis was the same: late-stage meningitis. The doctor advised Dashan not to do the surgery. His brother's cerebellum was already very swollen. In those days, medical care was underdeveloped. There was a high chance that patients undergoing such brain surgery would stay on the operating table and be unable to get up and down. Even if the surgery is successful, I will still be a dementia person from now on. After listening to the doctor's words, Dashan chose conservative treatment for his brother. If his brother had died due to surgery, he would never have been able to accept it. However, the effect of conservative treatment was very small. When my brother had a headache, he would often hold his head and roll on the ground, and he would cry heartbreakingly, and no one else could help him. Not long after, his younger brother became critically ill and was hospitalized. Dashan often went to the hospital to take care of him. After staying in the hospital for a month or two, his younger brother passed away. This has become the eternal pain of Dashan. He cremated his younger brother. On the day after the cremation, he held his younger brother's urn as a bus and drove around the city for a day. He wanted to show his younger brother the city and say his final farewell to him. The death of his younger brother made Dashan feel that life was too impermanent. He had never considered life and death because he always felt that it was a matter for the elderly. It was the first time in his life that he felt that death was so close to him. It was also from that time that his mentality changed a lot. In the past, he had to live a relaxed life and learn to enjoy life. Even if something unexpected happened one day, at least his life would not suffer. It would be so pitiful for a brother like me to leave without experiencing anything. Once people's desires are incited, there is no end.