We have similar gaps. We are both full of expectations for life. We both look forward to true love but doubt the sincerity of feelings.
You choose to look for, and keep trying, people who make you interesting.
I choose to guard a piece of pure land in my heart and wait for my beloved. Maybe I can wait, maybe I can't. It doesn't matter if I can't, then I will leave this piece of pure land to myself.
Purpose: You can only be responsible for your actions, not anyone else.