He was a senior who had returned to his alma mater to give a lecture. She worked hard not to look at him with fondness in her eyes. It was so ridiculous to just secretly work hard and finally become a school colleague with him. Only when she was doing the job she loved, could she let him go without any distractions. But in the end her selfishness dragged them into the abyss. She was in pain and he was struggling.
Intention: He worked hard and spent all his energy just to make her love him without any grudges.