A rural girl slowly realizes her sexual orientation in a small place with little information. At the same time, the sudden family changes make her feel more and more confused and doubtful. She doesn't know why her former relatives have become so strange, why two people who clearly love each other go their separate ways, why they obviously have a good hand on their own but are playing badly... In the end, time and self-awareness tell her that there are some things that have no solution, and she is the answer.
Purpose: I consider myself a person who is good at introspection, and I am also willing to observe the people and things around me. I prefer to organize what I see and feel into words, because words have memories, and there are too many people and things in every stage of life that are worthy of our thinking and recall. So I wanted to record everything I felt. On the one hand, it would be a New Year's gift to myself in 2023, and on the other hand, it would be a New Year's gift to friends who resonate with me. Because I am not a full-time writer, I don't know what genre my writing should belong to. Let's just read it as a novel.