He has always positioned himself as a dispensable existence, or a weak, devalued, useless existence used for comparison. It's just a replica or a defective product. All he can do is try his best to imitate others, but he himself has forgotten what he is like.
He is a cowardly and incompetent defective who cannot even express his feelings to the person he likes.
But defective products also have feelings.
When you are ignored or bullied, your feelings for anything in the world will turn into hatred, including those closest to you.
Intention: Love or family affection, how do you choose?