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The slightly famous internet singer Yan Yu & the well-known multi-gold painter Qiuxian —————————————————————— What would it be like if a person could never love? Yan Yu once thought about it, but she could never understand it. In her opinion, love is mutual. If she loves someone, she will give it wholeheartedly and be paranoid to death. I gave you love, and you gave me the corresponding love in return. Yan Yu used love as a bargaining chip to exchange with others. She lacked love and longed for love. Yan Yu has low self-esteem. Only when she falls in love with someone does she feel so low self-esteem. She feels that she is not good enough for the other person, that the other person is good at everything, and that she is just trash, discarded by others, and cannot be recycled. Yan Yu looks bright and cheerful on the surface, but in fact, she is just a coward who locks herself in the room and seeks death when something happens. She loves Qiuxian. They met a year ago. At that time, Qiuxian said that he could not fall in love with her. For a year, she didn't allow her to say she loved her. But Yan Yu made an exception. She loved her so much that she almost went crazy. Her love was buried in her heart and could never be released. Qiuxian said that Yan Yu didn't understand love. This is true. Yan Yu has never experienced love since he was a child, let alone been loved. What is love? She asked. The love in her mouth can be compared to: "A puppy that has been wandering for many years meets a person one day, and that person comes to give it food every now and then. It thinks it is love, but when it is beaten with sticks, has nowhere to hide in heavy rain, and is shivering with cold, that person will never appear or take it away. All he does is give it food when it is hungry and touch its head. That person cannot be its salvation or its safe haven." Qiuxian said that if Yan Yu fell in love with her, then Yan Yu would not be beautiful and flawless in her heart, but dirty and ugly. Yan Yu didn't understand. She asked, but Qiuxian never responded directly to her. Yan Yu felt that she was becoming more and more abnormal. She confessed to Qiuxian late one night. She said it in such a humble way that she could no longer listen to it... I love you so much. I think you are only mine and can only be mine. I don't allow anyone else to exist around you. You can only have me in your heart. She has wanted to possess her for more than a day or two. I really don't know how she has been able to bear it these days. But she rejected me with a simple apology and a few pretentious words to prevaricate me. I am Yan Yu. I feel so bad, so sad, and I don't understand why you continue to have an affair with me after a year since you don't like me. Qiuxian, you are the only one I have. I thought I could let go of anything. All I wanted was that you loved me. But you don't even love me. Who else in this world would love me? I went home and locked myself in the room, shutting myself down for a week. The floor was strewn with music sheets and messy lyrics, the handwriting was so scrawled that it was unrecognizable. Qiu Xian was waiting outside the door, and she would wait as long as I stayed in the house. She was knocking on the door and calling my name, but I didn't want to get close to her anymore. The moment I opened the door, she cried and hugged me, apologized profusely, and told me not to leave her. I asked, do you love me, and she replied, I love you, but you can't love me, and I can only maintain the current relationship with you. I wanted to break away from her, but when I saw her face stained with tears, I took out a tissue and wiped the tears from her eyes. The first time I learned about the term "sexual unrequited love" was from a friend, and it was this year. Things were getting weirder and weirder, and I realized that both Qiuxian and I were. She knows, but I don't. I ignored her, but she pressed closer to her, which made me a little bored with her. I knew that this kind of emotion could not appear. Once it appeared, I would never be able to fall in love with her again. I had to go against her in everything, be indifferent to her, and she alienated me, so that I could fall in love with her again. How cheap... I cursed myself over and over again, calling myself a scumbag and a worthless waste. I want to sing to you Why is it so quiet? Why is he still hesitating even though he wants to get closer? Why is it so beautiful? It is deeply engraved in my heart. The most gentle torture. Can you love me? Can you look at me? No matter whether you look at me or not, I am still lost. Tell me your true feelings. At least the anxiety can come to an end. Even when I close my eyes, it's you. My thoughts keep burning and I'm about to turn into ashes. I can't miss you every day. You are my breath. Qiu Xian, next time I see you, why... How can I think about this? It should be... Can I still see you alive? Concept: I am unrequited, how can I love you?