When she was seventeen years old, her grandmother often praised Li Li, "The girl is still young. If she grows up, she will definitely dance in the capital."
After hearing this, she showed no humility, and her brows and eyes were filled with pride, "Okay, by then, I will win this amazing voice in Luoyang."
Dad asked her to learn his martial arts. She smiled scornfully, "Dad, the entire Song family practices martial arts. How can it be that they can't protect me alone?"
Her mother asked her to inherit the family property. She loved rouge, gouache, eating, drinking, and cooking tea and wine, but she didn't love the money and sex. She looked up to the sky and sighed, "Fame, fame, and wealth are like floating clouds to me."
When I was young, all I cared about was pretending to be someone else, hiding behind him and squandering my happiness.
Many years later, Li Li understood that when grandma said that growing up did not mean that her age should grow from hairpins to cardamom, but that she should observe people's hearts, be sensible, and understand that things in this world are impermanent.
It's a pity that when she grew up, Luoyang was defeated, the people's morale was scattered, the people were in poverty, and their lives were in ruins. She didn't learn her father's skills, she couldn't protect her family and country, she couldn't protect her vast wealth, and she couldn't protect the people.
She was afraid of pain, of being disabled, of death, she was afraid of everything, but she was unwilling to die in such a world.
Until that day, she fell on the long steps, her clothes stained black with blood.
Suddenly she remembered that when the moss flowers were blooming that year, that person had already advised her that hitting an egg with a stone would end badly.
At that time, she just laughed and said, "Zhao Zhaoyin, so what if the flood is too heavy to recover? I would rather die than take this gamble."
He didn't even want to hug her. He just said, "Li Li, I know you have been having a hard time these past years."
But even so, she couldn't bear to say a harsh word when he was kind to her.
Li Li wiped away her tears and said with a smile, "Brother Zhaoyin, I wish you and Sister Gu grow old together and stay together forever. Really, I should have blessed you three years ago, but this sentence was three years late and delayed you three years."
In fact, I have known for a long time that we are not suitable for each other. I can't even keep you or let you go.
Intention: Throw away your ideals and you will fall into old age