You feel that you have interfered with history and ruined the growth trajectory that a god should have. You feel uneasy and want to run away from him.
Ah Li is the child you raised with your own hands, like a biological brother.
And he is too close to you. Ever since he was a young dragon, you have never refused his closeness because of your loneliness. After he turned into a human form, you never pushed him away because the children needed careful care. You take the child who accompanies you day and night too lightly, so much so that when you are a teenager, he always hugs you from behind habitually and naturally, drawing warmth from you with the intimacy and ambiguity of a lover.
And the unknown feelings in your heart are also taking root and sprouting.
The emotion makes you sick.
This is a rejection and resistance to the "incest" instinct.
You couldn't stop screaming in your head.
"You're crazy," you thought more than once, "to actually want to do something to the child you raised."
Purpose: To depict complex, sticky and contradictory emotions
