You are finally willing to cry for me. It's just that I can't smile for you anymore.
If there is a man who is willing to shed tears for you, then that man can be trusted with you for life.
You never shed tears, but I decided to give my life to you. And you shed tears for me, but I can no longer accompany you throughout your life.
Sorry. I can only close my eyes, leave you, and see you again in the next life.
I hope we can meet again in the next life. This time, you must fall in love with me first, so that I don't have to spend my life's tears in exchange for your staying at the last moment of my life.
——Excerpted from Ji Ran's diary