Stardust Wilderness [Science Fiction]

Hoshino is a baby in the incubation chamber and a modified person in the "Black Mist Zone". As an experimental subject, she was tortured to the extreme. She was accidentally knocked down and successfully fused with the glacier virus, becoming the only survivor of that batch. When she was young, she was implanted with the "1.0 Emotional Suppression Conduit", which made her live a numb life and did all kinds of evil things for the "Black Mist Zone". While assisting the organization in establishing a laboratory in the Peaceful Country, she received a recall order to return to the city with her dark past. On the way home, an accidental crash caused the "1.0 Suppression conduit" buried in Gen's body to malfunction unstablely. She began to have strange thoughts, what is freedom? Why freedom? How did she realize the truth? Are cyborgs correct in having these thoughts? No one could answer her questions, so she had no choice but to indulge her thirst for knowledge and walk on the thorny road step by step. - "Thanks, but it's ordinary... To me." "How could it be? There is a beautiful dream hidden in your name - the wilderness under the stardust. Just imagining it makes me feel that all my worries are gone. Heaven and earth will tolerate me, and meteorites will accompany me... And I am so small, my worries are not worth mentioning..." - "You say it's never too late, but I feel like it's been too late from the beginning of our lives." Hoshino looked at the light track occupied by aircraft. Under it was the abyss city that would swallow moths. Her words to herself did not receive a response from her other self. "I have never had the life I wanted." "There is only death or struggle." - Hot tears fell one after another, and the hot breath in her chest covered the pain in her body. Freedom, optimism, and love... Hoshino thought of all the memories of the past, the bald child who bravely resisted, and the experimental subject who secretly gave the researchers nicknames. And that sub-personality. In the eternal darkness, during the operation where Valen put shackles on her, the young girl prayed with hope, praying for herself to get better, praying for herself to hide in the abyss, not to give up and join the light, which ultimately formed the same role as a heart anchor. - If a person is destined to die, she will dedicate her body to the fearless heroic spirit, burn the belief in victory, use the ashes of light to make arrows, and burn away the darkness every time the sound breaks through the sky. She may die, but her arrows will not miss her mark. - "Give me a strong body. Give me a flawless heart." She spoke quietly, as if she was chanting for the world. "Give me the love of life, give me innocence, give me a sense of loneliness, give me tenacity and patience, give me! The search for freedom!" She growled, and at that moment, all the expectations that had existed but were not allowed to be expressed, and that were growing wildly in the wasteland were acknowledged by her. "Give me another unbearable memory! Give me a broken personality! Give me a twisted mind! Give me the abandonment of all living beings!" "Give me the dagger to kill myself with! Give me the filth to drown myself with! Give me! Give me! Give me!" "One day..." The last sentence was lost in the storm. - There is a primitive fire hidden in everyone's heart, which is the glow that existed at the beginning of the birth of the planet. - 1. The main world is cyberpunk/the sub-world is steam magic. 2. The protagonist's sub-personality is from a first-person perspective, which will be reversed later. 3. A growth-oriented heroine (a process that requires self-awakening) has a lot of plot foreshadowing. 4. For the sake of the world constructed in the author's inner mind, I promise not to abandon the article and never leave it unfinished. Regardless of whether I have signed a contract or not, this book will be updated until it is completed. Thanks to the friends who collected it for me, and to every reader who passed by silently. Welcome to communicate. Determination: Live with will!