Not hating or liking is the best distance, this is the only thing she knows.
She is very unbridled, regardless of the secular concept of love, and loves the person she has always loved deeply; she is very brave, and makes her love known to the public; she is very stupid, she only hopes that the person she likes can be happy, even if she sacrifices herself; she is very generous, and can take up and let go.
She hates the worldly view of love. Perhaps their ending is already doomed and no one can change it.
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