In Xu Yan's memory, it seems that all the good and bad things are real and illusory. Sometimes she can't tell whether she really exists, whether what she is experiencing is the reality now, or whether it is an empty dream. She slowly recalls the good and bad, the family ties, the friendships, and the secret love that ended in vain. She had thought about giving up countless times, wanting to leave this dream or life that made her feel unhappy. She thought that if she could decide, let her end herself at the age of 30. It was a sad but happy decision for her.
Concept: About family affection, friendship, and secret love in childhood