After the male protagonist "I" discovered that there was a "problem" with his sexual orientation, he went through a painful period of self-denial and doubt. During this period, he met people who treated him sincerely, but also hurt people who treated him sincerely. Until later, "I" fell in love with someone I shouldn't love. For him, he started to lose weight and make himself more perfect, using all means and thoughts just to get close to him. For him, "I" happily accepted his identity as a homosexual, but in order to get him, I embarked on an extreme criminal path, which led to an irreversible tragedy.
Intent: There is no gender distinction between the object of love, but no matter who you love, you need to abide by reason and know how to choose.