Before she died, she recalled that she had lived a muddle-headed life and had missed so many things. She had missed so much that she was criticized even after she died. No one had ever looked for her after she died, and no one remembered her. She was worried about too much. No one told her about the death of her grandma who was playing abroad and she was never able to see her. Her father's cheating didn't help her. There were too many things that were too late.
Since you are unwilling to give in, since you can't bear it, then go back to the past again, go back to the age of 18, start a new life again, break the original destiny, and turn your life around!
Purpose: To continue the relationship