Looking back on the past, I discovered why I was introverted. It turns out that there are traces of everything that can be found. I suddenly found myself secretly in love with someone. I can't compete with your boyfriend as my former deskmate, right? After graduation, am I bent? How is it possible? It can be rescued again. (True story)
When I felt that I was bisexual, I realized that it was all fake. Asexuality might be more suitable for me.
As for why I had to write it on a whim, it was because I had a dream. I dreamed that I took leave from school for unknown reasons and quietly passed away the next day. The feeling at that time was that I was very calm and there was no disturbance in my heart. Yes, it turned out that asking for leave earlier was a foreshadowing. I was still thinking about why I wanted to ask for leave. There is no big problem. I will never ask for leave. I was very worried about what to do if it was a dream that I asked for in a parallel world. , It is easy to bring my shadow even in dreams, and I don't know whether this is good or bad.
The first thing I felt when I woke up was that it was such a pity. After all, my memories of the past have not been finished on the Internet. In fact, 0 collection rate and 0 click rate are quite good. The key point is that I want to hide a messy relationship that does not belong to me.
Then I didn't even want to read novels, and I withdrew my emotions. Every day, I would write short copywriting about interesting things or feelings about life, and mark the time. I once created a lot of copywriting for myself, but later I felt that there was no point in leaving some copywriting alone. I could completely compile my own copywriting into stories in novels. Perhaps this is the only reason why I want to enter the novel world.
Intention: Let it go if you can