"Chen Muli!"
He paused, but still didn't turn around.
"I don't want it anymore! I don't want it anymore if others don't want it." After I yelled hysterically, tears flowed down. It seemed that I had exhausted all my strength. "I give up." It was supposed to be an extremely firm sentence, but it came out in a low voice, like a whisper. I can't let it go, Ali! Yes, how can I let it go! But, how can you let me be so disappointed.