He understood that he just fell in love with that nihilistic idealized person. His love came fiercely but ended abruptly at the moment when it should have blossomed. Loneliness accompanied him, but how could he control the feelings of like and dislike?
At a class reunion many years later, when I meet the girl of my dreams again, will she be my own "healer"? Whether he can capture this relationship remains to be seen.
Intention: Get out of idealism and fall in love with the real, real and concrete.