When I was young, I was always unwelcome because of my jealousy; when I grew up, I was always dishonest because of my pride. --Fengzhan
When I was young, I sought to please you in every possible way, just because I was afraid of being alone; when I grew up, I indulged and indulged in every possible way, just because I owed you too much. --Hong Duojing
Apart from the relationship between repayment and being repaid, it is best not to involve too many relationships between creditors and debtors. You are the creditor and I am the debtor. Your so-called strange feelings are just the desire to make up for the fact that I took away something you cherish.
Intent: Redemption and compensation