My Regiment Commander, My Regiment and the Past and Present Life of Soldiers' Assault

I am bored, accomplishing nothing and being alone. The ideal flame burns faintly in my heart, always so close to me and so far away from me. I always feel that I have caught it, but I have caught nothing. But this is what I was thinking about in my past life. Why do I talk about my past life? Actually, I don't quite understand it, because in this life, my name is Shi Jin. Conception: