I Want to Be with You

Throughout the first semester of high school, Jian Sifan always felt like he was under some kind of spell. In junior high school, she used to be a top student and class president that everyone praised; but now, all kinds of strange things are happening to her one after another. Others have a brand new high school life, but she has a cheating high school life. Those old classmates from junior high school would often use the words "Old Squad Leader" to stimulate her, and there seemed to be a long list of comments hidden in the teasing: The once brilliant squad leader has also begun to rebel? She felt that everyone thought she had entered the so-called rebellious period... In fact, no one knew that before entering the first year of high school, Jian Sifan's wish was already simple and clear: I will never be a class cadre in high school. I just want to study hard, get into a good university, and change my own destiny. However, this seemingly easy wish actually seems not that easy, and it is unclear and even confusing. At least at the beginning of her high school life, she thought so. Everything happened for a reason. First, her new classmate made a prank on her, causing her to be dragged into the corridor by her class teacher to lecture her for an hour and a half. In the middle of the class, she couldn't stand the class teacher's questioning, so she retorted. The next day, her retort: ​​"It's my right to laugh!" Became a topic of ridicule among everyone during class. This "wise saying" has followed her for many years. Even after graduation, no one could remember her name, and they still remembered what she said when she contradicted the class teacher. When people are unlucky, troubles are like haunting spells, one after another. Not long after the confrontation with the class teacher, another geography class incident popped up. During the day, I was bombarded by the teacher at school. When I returned to the dormitory at night, I was crowded with roommates who were in the same dormitory and were born on the same day, same year, same month, and same day. I was jealous... In short, she was wondering, why did her days as a good student disappear after she entered high school? Until a while ago, an apology and a change of seats finally put an end to the chaos. The spell had expired, and she was able to focus on her studies with peace of mind. But the failure of one spell seemed to activate the coming of another new spell... One evening towards the end of the first semester of high school, Jian Sifan was sitting at the end of the classroom by the window. The setting sun was quietly casting its afterglow, leaving a faint and gentle warmth. It was dinner break, and despite the noise in the classroom, she came back from the cafeteria early, lay down in front of her desk and copied Japanese words quietly. Yang Shan—the boy who was inexplicably placed at the front of the classroom and closest to the podium by the head teacher two weeks ago—quietly moved his stool from the front to the back of the classroom. He moved to the aisle next to her desk and sat down quietly. The classroom was still noisy. Only Jian Sifan, who was concentrating on writing, was disturbed by Yang Shan's sudden behavior. For a moment, she felt as if the orange halo in front of her eyes was cut off and quickly connected by some invisible force; when she came back to her senses, Yang Shan was next to her. "What are you doing?" Jian Sifan straightened his back suddenly and turned around to ask. Yang Shan's deep eyes were fixed on Jian Sifan's face, and he stared at her for two seconds, then lowered his head. He slowly opened the English book in his hand and placed it gently on her desk, his movements calm and leisurely. Jian Sifan was confused and his eyes were slightly focused, waiting for his answer. When the page of the book turned to a certain place, Yang Shan naturally put his hands on the book. Without raising his head, he seemed to be thinking, and said with a slight trembling in his low voice: "I want to be with you." When Yang Shan said these words, he seemed to have something in his mouth, and his indescribable deep bass made his words even more hazy and ambiguous. However, Jian Sifan was closest to him and heard clearly. At that moment, Jian Sifan was frightened. Except for the window sill, she was surrounded by a white wall behind her. She quickly turned her head and looked at the seat directly in front of her. After making sure that there was no one in the seat in front of her, she instinctively retracted the hand that was holding the pen when she was writing. Jian Sifan was even more confused and did not dare to look at Yang Shan anymore, so he replied softly: "What are you talking about!" Jian Sifan's words also had a hint of preaching, as if what Yang Shan said was not human. Because, at that age, in Jian Sifan's opinion, it was absolutely incorrect and inappropriate for a boy to say such strange things to a girl. But in Jian Sifan's youth, Yang Shan was the first person to express her affection for him, although at that time, it seemed like a strange thing to her. Yang Shan didn't know what kind of response he would receive from the other party when he said what he had been brewing for almost a semester that day. In fact, he had secretly imagined that in addition to the two easiest-to-guess responses, he might also be shy and silent, or be treated as a lunatic and send him "Are you sick?" But in reality, Jian Sifan's response was something he had never imagined. For a moment I didn't know how to answer it properly. Fortunately, he still had a book in his hand. He didn't know what to say, so he flipped through a few pages and pretended to find what he wanted to read. After dinner, the peak time for everyone to return to their seats has arrived, and waves of classmates return to their seats. In the corridor occupied by Yang Shan, classmates were returning one after another. When they saw him appearing here, they couldn't help but ask curious questions. Questions like "Why are you sitting here?" And "Have the seats been changed like this?" Are quite good. There is always someone who likes to cause trouble and will say, "Hey, what are you two doing?" And still be weird. If one sentence is not enough, I will add another sentence, "I will sue the teacher for you two?" Jian Sifan became nervous all of a sudden, and his heartbeat also increased. He couldn't tell whether it was fear or shyness. Yang Shan didn't know how to respond to Jian Sifan's words, but he responded calmly to the words of several ill-intentioned people, and immediately gave up their crooked ideas. "What's wrong with making room for the students on duty? Are you jealous? How about I sit next to you next time?" Yang Shan should have thought of this best reason a long time ago and blurted it out without thinking. "No, no, I don't want to bother you, just sit there. I'm bothering you, so don't come over!" "It's okay, I won't bother you. I'll wait for my brother to come over and harass you on time tomorrow!" … Jian Sifan listened to the replies from Yang Shan and two or three people around him. They said something to Yang Shan. For a few rounds, Jian Sifan couldn't help but laugh after hearing this, but he held it back in the end. After hearing what he said about making room for the on-duty students, Jian Sifan's slightly frightened mood eased somewhat. "Sweeping done, it's time for class. You can go back!" Jian Sifan said, speaking a little faster than usual. At this time, the noise in the classroom seemed to be gently softened by the afterglow of the setting sun, and time seemed to freeze quietly at this moment. The soft sunset gradually lengthened their shadows and intertwined them together, as if quietly indicating that some unspeakable story was about to begin. But Jian Sifan still doesn't know what kind of waves these seemingly abrupt words will cause in her peaceful and study-focused life... Purpose: May lovers love each other as they were from the beginning till their old age.