He is four years older than her, and they spent almost every holiday together when they were young. Later, she transferred to another city and he also went to junior high school. They could only see each other once a year. Later, he didn't study well and joined the army before graduating from high school. He was not seen for two years. Later, she didn't know when she had an undue desire for him. She only knew that they were relatives.
She knew from her parents that he had a girlfriend, that he broke up and got back together, that he was married, a husband, and a father. All the while she was just an outsider, his outsider.
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