He has always liked someone he shouldn't like, but who can control feelings.
That night, he did the thing he regretted most in his life. But if you make a mistake, how can it be easily undone?
He had lost him forever, in every way, and he could never see him again.
Maybe he had loved too hard in his life, and thanks to God's blessing, he was given a chance to start over again to make up for the regrets of his previous life.
Determination: He loves him till death.