Chen Xinyi has always lived a life of failure. She has lived a life where she and her parents are disappointed.
Chen Xinyi hates herself now, her past self, and even her future self.
Chen Xinyi's greatest hope is that Chen Xinyi has never existed. Only if Chen Xinyi has not existed, then the sadness, pain, hurt, and unbearableness will not exist.
However, would the world really be better if Chen Xinyi did not exist?
Intention: Reconciliation with oneself