Gu Ruan met Jiang Che when she was sixteen years old. Even after many, many years, she still remembered what he wore that night and what he said to her.
All Gu Ruan could remember now was that night and one afternoon when he turned his head and smiled at her.
"If I had known that this would be the outcome, I would not have sent you a message that night, Jiang Che."
"But I don't know, I don't know that I will meet you and fall in love with you. It was obviously you who took the initiative, but why in the end I couldn't let go and couldn't get out, Jiang Che."
"What came after those days and nights when I couldn't sleep, those heavy blows? It was the words that I couldn't say and the grievances that I couldn't state, Jiang Che."
Intention: Missing my first love and myself when I was sixteen or seventeen years old