The most far-reaching decision is tied to a single date, a single hour, and often just a minute. Such dramatic moments and fateful moments are extremely rare in personal life and in the evolution of history. History is engaged in perfectly shaping that mysterious moment without the help of others. —— Zweig, "When the Human Stars Shine"
A faithful and reliable guide to the chain of affection. It marks the development of my life so far, and therefore the chain of events through which I have passed.
Because events are the antecedents and consequences of those feelings, I can easily forget my misfortune, but I can't forget my mistakes, let alone my kind feelings.
These memories of mistakes and feelings are too precious to me and can never disappear from my heart. I may have missed some facts, made certain things obvious, and made certain dates wrong. But I will never remember wrongly anything I can feel, and I will never wrongly remember anything my emotions drive me to do.
There is a certain continuity between my feelings and thoughts. Previous thoughts and feelings can affect future thoughts and feelings, so to accurately judge the latter, you must understand the former.
I illustrate the consequences by stating the original reasons. I hope to put my heart in front of readers as it is, so I will narrate it from various angles and explain it with the truth, so that readers will not pass by every turmoil in my mood, and let readers judge the original cause of these turmoils by themselves.
Purpose: recalling and reflecting on my past
