"Don't touch me, I will dirty you. I'm dirty inside and out. I'm disgusting. I was wrong. I shouldn't have had illusions about you. I shouldn't have liked you. It's because I overestimated my abilities. I'm not qualified to bear your kindness to me. I don't deserve it. I beg you, please let me go..."
"Listen to me. I will never let you leave me in this life. You can't leave. I want you to stay by my side for the rest of my life. I love you. I can't live without you."
Intention: Love him well while he is alive