I began to feel that this city no longer belonged to me, that I was about to give up on this city, and that everything in the city was so terrible. I started to hate it all, I hated that they asked me to do this and that, and I fell in love with loneliness. I should feel that loneliness would be more suitable for me. That's why I like being alone at home and don't like them asking about everything about me. But I still have to work hard to make myself smile. Don't let them and say anyone sees anything.