He grew up alone and didn't get any real good. Then someone came and he couldn't bear to let go of that good. He almost made a desperate choice. Only later did he realize that it was all his imagination. Later, he left in embarrassment and met a good person. He was afraid and didn't dare to get close. He guarded his secret carefully, but was left out in the cold after he asked the secret personally.
He understands and understands that as an outlier, he is struggling to persevere despite all the hardships.
Concept: Nameless persistence. Fortunately, hope is a hot word and does not bring death.