Over the years, I have been writing non-stop. Of course, most of what I write is what I think. So it was named after "When You Look Up at the Stars". Mr. Qian Zhongshu said: "When they are young, most people mistake their creative desire for their creative ability." It's probably talking about people like me.
For young people, every step they take is accompanied by the reshaping of their worldview, so they feel emotional every moment. As a result, their desire for expression is very strong. They regard this as their desire to create, and further extend it to their creative talent. I think I will be considered a writer only when I no longer let my thoughts pour out, but when I seriously think about writing and the work itself.
These are just provisions to avoid the lack of inspiration after I became a writer. My essays appear at irregular intervals. Sometimes I write several essays a day, and sometimes I don't finish them for weeks. Sometimes it makes sense, and sometimes it's just nonsense.
I am born with a sensitive nature and am accustomed to narcissism, self-pity, self-suffering, and self-pity. Therefore, my daily life can sometimes be joyful and sometimes miserable; and various scenarios and fantasies often appear in my mind. I once expressed myself to a senior sister whom I respected very much: "40% of my energy in a day should be allocated to deal with various emotions, 30% to deal with various daydreams and fantasies, and 30% to deal with real life."
This was once my excuse for the misery of reality, how could I compare to those who were 100% "in the moment". The senior sister said at the beginning that this was really the standard configuration of poets—romantic poets. It is true that when poets write poems, their emotions come first.
Purpose: People are not meant to be kept in captivity!