The world is absolute, light and shadow are opposites. The sun was too hot and dazzling, and the darkness was breathless. I was struggling to survive in the gray gap.
She wanted me to see the world for her, and see the beauty in the world, and the darkness in her heart might be illuminated.
I tried to do it, wandering around, helping people. They respect me, believe in me, and regard me as a god.
She said I had a beautiful smile, so I smiled at everyone without being stingy.
Both men and women have obsession in their eyes and they all say they love me.
Everyone understands, they just love my skin, I don't care, if I tear off my disguise and reveal my ugliness and darkness, they will no longer follow me.
Everyone in the world knows that I am too ruthless, but they don't know that my heart only beats for one person.
Everyone in the port knows that the "poison doctor" joined the port Mafia because he owed a favor to the leader.
They are all wrong and no one can force me, including Mr. Sen. I just want to catch that beam of light, treasure it between my brows forever, and think about him constantly.
When I see him being betrayed and deceived, I feel heartbroken and angry. Because I like him, I understand his momentary vulnerability and uneasiness better than others.
Watching him become a "double black", watching him jump because of Dazai's "slug", watching him get hungover because of Dazai, I sadly discovered that the person I like, such a warm person, also likes someone in a humble and cautious way.
I begged despicably and shamelessly, if there really is a god, can you not let him know about it and let me always, always guard him.
Fairy tales are for children. With my sister gone, no one can give me a good ending.
I'm gone. In this life, I just pray that he can be happy.
Intention: Nothing more than that
