I loved writing suicide notes when I was a kid. I couldn't write many words at that time, so every letter that should be solemn looked very funny because of the large number of pinyin.
When I feel desperate or depressed, I will start to formulate the contents of my suicide note. If I wrote these in my childhood, I will burn them, and then I will feel a sense of relief and melancholy. Now I only write them down on paper when I am very confused.
I have always wanted to record these ideas and thoughts, and now I finally started writing. This is actually a love letter I wrote to myself.
I long for a dignified death. In my imagination, the most dignified way for me to leave was to die. Now I find that there are too many surprises in life, and the additional effects of aging are the most disturbing.
How long will I live? Is it really okay to live such a self-centered life?
Can.
Purpose: Respect life.