There was a girl who began to doubt everything around her when she was 20 years old. She suddenly felt that her understanding of the world was wrong and that she had never really understood the world.
She began to think back, thinking about the campus cold violence in middle school and the extremely controversial incident that happened not long ago. Suddenly, she seemed to be plunged into an endless darkness. She began to doubt herself and the world she had always known...
She suspected she was sick.
Later, she learned to regulate herself, and she tried to re-understand the world. In this process, there was pain and confusion, but what really saved her was the touch that she had never experienced from a stranger who was like a family member.
Am I sick? If not, why am I so incompatible with them?
Are they sick? If not, why are they so arrogant?
Is the world sick? Or have I never really understood this world?
20 Years old seems to be more meaningful in terms of growth than 18 years old. At 18 years old, we have the status of legal adults, but we don't seem to have the corresponding mental and experience. At the age of 20, we gradually enter the society and learn to redefine our roles in life under the dual pressure of ourselves and the outside world.
Maybe some people won't have the same troubles as the people in the book, but I still wanted to write about it. I want to express myself, I want to love this world well.
Intention: When my understanding of the world collapsed, when I stood up to rebuild, I chose to reconcile with my former self and the world.