Why can't we let go of ourselves?
I have to magnify those pains infinitely and replay those memories.
That is an obsession that cannot be let go at all.
I am obviously afraid that I will cause harm to others, but I hurt them again and again. I want to bow my head and apologize countless times, but I stubbornly refuse to look back, and then torture myself with endless regrets and endless heartache.
So many bright things turned into broken dreams in the end, intersecting with the cruel reality.
Intention: love