I have been thinking about whether all the decisions would be changed if I could do many things over again. So, I put together all my usual random thoughts and wanted to write something.
Just entertain yourself and entertain others, don't take it too seriously. I will be very happy when friends come to see me. In the dim light of the shabby room, drinking with friends until they are tipsy is also a lot of fun. If no one cares about it, I will just enjoy myself, look through the past, and bask in my mood, but it is also comfortable.
It may be faster at first because I have been thinking about many things for a long time, but later it will be slower because when it comes time to make a decision, I will still be hesitant.