All the deep and shallow love, ignorance of the reason, youth and ignorance, cannot explain the entanglement and concern between me and her——
Sometimes I would say that my thoughts about her were just that I was too tired, hungry, and lonely, so I found something as a sustenance.
But sometimes this sustenance is heartbreaking, and sometimes it is related to your interests. I am greedy and should not be so thoughtful with her.
What's more, maybe, she has never remembered me or missed me. At most, she just hates me a little.
I'll re-write the full text and post it together, sorry.