He asked me, his voice extremely soft: "Have you ever killed bugs?"
"I used to do this a lot when I was a kid. It feels very special. You can try it. Use your thumb to press down on a bug -" he pressed his palm slightly. "You can feel it struggling, squirming its limbs, and then when you exert force, you will hear a "pop" sound. The bug will stop moving immediately and will bleed or mucus, green or red."
"However, I also made mistakes: sometimes I only broke half of their bodies." He sounded particularly guilty. "It was really a big mistake. Because insects are incredible creatures, they always want to live. Even if only the other half of their heads and feet are left, they will still move and struggle to crawl forward."
"That's why I like killing insects." Ugetsu murmured, "Because I'm afraid of them, because I sympathize with them, because I want to save them——
"Because I'm just like them. "
*Original character first person. A story after Ugetsu and Akihiko broke up.
*No CP, if I insist on saying it, Ugetsu → Akihiko.
*Lots of bugs and OOC.
Purpose: All the pain and loneliness are worth it.