It's not that she wants her character to be like this, she also wants to know what kind of person she is. It's just that she was confused after experiencing so much at such a young age. She is not calm, sometimes she is just good at covering up. But stubborn, self-respecting, sensitive and proud.
Later, it was not that she wanted to change herself, but that she could let go of the past and accept a new life, so she lived so happily. Sometimes, many people think that she values them, but unfortunately, she likes everyone but loves no one.
He said, "I will love you as long as I live."
Another one said, "Eternal life is something you can only find if you believe in it."
And she always told him, "Forget it, give up."
He always said to the other person, "It must last forever."