How much time elapses between what you once had and when everything is lost?
Because I have lost too much, I want to escape; but once I have it, I feel at a loss, and I am afraid of having it.
If you lose, you will be afraid; if you have something, you will also be afraid.
I used to believe in dreams so much, but after experiencing too much, I realized that the dreams were too broken and fragile.
Afraid of other people, even a little bit close, because it will bring back memories of the past; being close again and again, and having close memories again and again, will make people frightened and unforgettable.
I thought I had let go of everything, but it still remains in the deepest part of my memory. Why can't I forget it? Can I forget it?
Can't.
Those happy and painful memories can only be remembered but not forgotten.
When everything is lost, I realize that pain is also happiness, and now, it is just a puppet without emotions. Originally I cared about everything, but I pretended to be careless.
It's really hard to be like this.
Keeping a good poker face at all times is the basic principle of her survival.
I am used to enduring everything silently, because this has become an unspeakable rule.
But once she met him, everything seemed to have gradually changed, but she still chose to escape.
Sorry, thank you.